babylila

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there is much going on in my house right now! this is my favorite picture of lila from the day she was born, but she’s already so different! she has her little baby acne, she throws up everything she eats at least once a day, and she screams her head off when she is over tired. and i am totally whipped on this little one! sometimes i feel like my heart is going to jump out of my throat when i look at her and i have to smother her little face in kisses. meanwhile, mia is the most amazing helper – upset when i don’t let her help enough, and gabe is so tender. i love it.
it’s definitely good that mia isn’t in school everyday yet. this way, we get to take care of the baby together a few days a week, being partners again. we were such partners before lila was born. it’s nice to still have those moments every once in a while.
the other day, jeff discovered a movie that he and gabe made when gabe was about to turn 4. it was the sweetest thing. it was just exactly like gabe today, just littler. i bawled watching it. i love that little boy or big boy, depends on the moment. he’s about to finish reading his first chapter book. he’s so big. lately his allergies have been so bad that he’s having trouble hearing. it’s a real concern, as he can’t hear his teacher and isn’t getting his work done because of it. we’re attacking the “dust/mold/dust mite” possibilities. i’m sure his bedroom is the main culprit. i got a cover for his mattress and pillows today as well as those vacuum storage bags to store away clothes in. i REALLY hope this is a piece of the puzzle. allergies are a long road with lots of wrong turns…
anyway, back to gabe’s movie. as i was watching it, i realized that when he was 4, he drove me crazy with all this negotiating and protesting, etc. but his heart was so sweet it made me cry. today, is the same. it’s easy to get on his case for things he should “know better” about, or things i’ve said a million times and have to say again. same thing with mia. the daily grind if full of good and rough moments. but this little movie reminded me that these kids are the best gift to me. i am SO blessed to have them. and now lila is a part of that. i am so lucky. i have friends whose heart’s desire is to have kids and haven’t been able to YET. but for some reason, i’ve been given 3 little souls to love. i am so thankful, it’s not even funny.